Fifteen years ago I met Sayer Wesley. I fell in love with him. I promised I would never leave him. I swore nothing could break us apart.
Five years ago I broke my promise. I ran away. I took the one secret that could destroy us both and disappeared.
Five days ago I thought I saw him.
I knew it was impossible. Sayer was locked away, serving a deserved sentence in federal prison. He couldn’t find me.
He wouldn’t find me. I was too good at hiding. Too good at surviving.
Because if Sayer ever found me, there would be hell to pay for a plethora of sins. The worst of which, he didn’t even know about.
Five hours ago, I told myself I was crazy.
Five minutes ago, I saw him again.
Five seconds ago, I was too late.
There were times in my life that I thought I wouldn’t survive. I stood at the precipice of death and peered over the edge. One misstep or ill-timed gust of wind and I would have tipped over, fallen down the black abyss and never resurfaced.
Sometimes when I looked back at those moments, those infinitely dark and twisted times, I couldn’t breathe. I would feel my heart shatter all over. I would experience the tearing, crushing, ripping apart of my limbs and muscles, my tendons and veins, my heart and my mind. I would forget how to breathe.
I would forget how to be.
Until I remembered him.
He was the one constant in my life that had pushed me through the darkness. He was the one constant in my life that loved me beyond everything else, beyond what I was or had been or could ever be. He wanted me to be better. He wanted to be better for me.
And yet he was as tangled in the madness as I was.
I didn’t have that life anymore. I had broken free and found something safe to build a foundation on. But I couldn’t remember the past without imagining his smile or his eyes, his touch. I couldn’t think about where I had been without thinking of where we were supposed to go.
Where he was supposed to take me.
Sometimes life doesn’t work out the way you plan. Sometimes circumstances change and sometimes they’re for the better.
But he was my constant then and he is the constant ghost that haunts me now.
I might not be with him.
But he will always be with me.
“And in the end, the game must be played perfectly. Everything must go according to plan. Everything must fall into place and happen exactly right. The stakes are high. The risks are great. Yet the consequences are not enough to turn us away.”
OMG!!! Rachel Higginson, you are my new favorite author!!
I will admit I knew nothing about this book going in. Caroline and Sayer’s story blew me away! This is second-chance romance at its very best. Caroline and Sayer’s story is told in flashbacks alternating between past and present day. Caro grew up as the daughter of a con man and thief, so she was in the life from the time she was a child. Skilled at stealing and lying, she meets her match in Sayer, a lost boy who rises quickly through the ranks of their Washington D.C crime family. Sayer steals her heart and soul from the first time they meet as children.
“He was the one constant in my life that had pushed me through the darkness. He was the one constant in my life that loved me beyond everything else, beyond what I was or had been or could ever be. He wanted me to be better. He wanted to be better for me.”
Caro has escaped her old life with her young daughter and her lifelong best friend Frankie. They have moved to a small town in Colorado, where no one knows them and they can start over with a clean slate. Until Caro’s past catches up with her and even her clever planning cannot protect her and her daughter from her dark past.
“Sometimes life doesn’t work out the way you plan. Sometimes circumstances change and sometimes they’re for the better. But he was my constant then and he is the constant ghost that haunts me now.”
Rachel Higginson does a PERFECT job of telling Caro and Sayer’s story, weaving together the past and present in such a way that I felt every heartbreak, emotion and thrill. THIS is the way to build connection between characters! Nothing felt rushed or forced and I literally could not put this book down. If you are looking for a sexy, thrilling and intelligent romantic suspense story, then ‘Constant’ should be your next read. And the ending!! But ‘Consequence’ is out now, so I am diving right into the next book. I did not want this to end so I am thrilled to get more Caro and Sayer!!
“My world. The one thing I’m living for above everything else.”